Work Life Balance
If you don't have a job, how do you not go insane? Whether it's because you're unemployed, or a stay at home spouse (either kids in school all day or older so not home or you never had any), or retired. There's nothing you're obligated to do. I can't imagine lasting very long. How do you keep the motivation to... stay alive? If you sit all day and watch daytime television or even if you don't and you do some cleaning and play pickleball or whatever, it's still all "goal-less". What are you trying to achieve? But here's the worst part. Having a job doesn't change any of this. It just makes it worse really. So I go to work all day, and then just face this meaninglessness problem between 6pm and 6am. I do the same thing, over and over. Running in place. Working, eating dinner, doing nothing, regretting life, sleeping. (Edit: Since I wrote this draft, I saw this post⤻ and it only seemed to confirm what I was thinking. "I'm only passing the time, and don't exist.")
Why go on at all? There are things I want, but I have less and less hope of obtaining each day. In the last few months I've really stepped up my spending. I never used to buy things for myself. Now I've bought exercise accessories, a laptop, concert tickets, perhaps in some subconscious attempt to fill the void in my life with things. "I may never have a spouse, but for £1000 I can have all this cool stuff." I have all this money sitting in accounts. Investments and Retirement funds, just doing nothing for me. Just waiting for the market to collapse so it can all disappear anyways. I need to turn it into assets.
Yours Truly,
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