Self-Interest
Do people read their own blog?
I find myself reading (or at least, revisiting) my own posts somewhat often. Just checking in on them. Seeing if they got any additional upvotes. Or just to remind myself of the topics I've touched on. Perhaps that's a narcissistic thing to do.
I looked at this post again and thought I should expand a bit more. Ironically, just reviewing this post in the first place is a symptom of this issue it would seem... Maybe that's emblematic of my whole life: just looking back at where I've been instead of producing something new or planning for the future. Spending more time in the past.
Really sitting and thinking about it, I feel as though I often think that "the best has already happened" in my life. I've been conditioned over years to see the past as a preferable place to the present/future. Years, probably at least [redacted number], of small scale failures have ground me down. I don't want to get specific here, but suffice it to say, I may look successful in some ways, but in the truly important aspects of life, I'm woefully under-performing.
For unto every one that hath shall be given, and he shall have abundance: but from him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath. Matthew 25:29
Yours Truly,
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