NGL, this one hurt
What a joke. The other day [redacted friend] told me that their relationship broke up. We'd been friends for a few years, I really quite like them and I would want the opportunity to get to know them better. So I'm thinking "This is my chance." [Redacted friend] says that I should send them any good suitors I know, and that they will send any that they know, my way. Well. This door is shutting rather quickly. So I guess that's my last chance to assert myself. So I try, and perhaps they were confused. So I clarify, and as of tonight, no answer. I hate this. I just want someone to like me. Is this how it normally works? It can't be. I guess I've just destroyed my chances and possibly the sanctity of our friendship. For what? For nothing. For the stupidest hope that maybe they like me. Of course they don't like me. [Redacted friend] and the other billions of people on earth know better. Heck the people who egged me on. Thinking I have a chance. I knew better. I've been saying for probably a year now: [Redacted friend] wouldn't be friends with me if they thought I was attractive.
There was a spark of hope. The smallest smolder. And I knew better. But I let it get a hold on me. And for a moment I believed it might actually work. But that's not how the world works. The world isn't some chick flick. Things don't just "work out" for people like me. I've known this whole time. [Redacted friend] doesn't find me attractive, otherwise we wouldn't be friends. I just don't understand why they would bother with me though. It just confuses me even further because, not too long ago, they sent a text about "Oh you're so cool and there's a reason I wanted to be friends with you and I can't wait to learn more about you." What would possess them to do that if they didn't actually mean it? When I got that text, it made my day week. But I guess it wasn't sincere.
There's nothing to say anymore about this. So I'll just not reply. And if [redacted friend] reaches out ever again, we'll talk. But unless that happens... I've embarrassed myself. I put myself forth and I think they're confused as to my interest because they thought it was perfectly clear that they never had any intentions of being anything more than acquaintances. It doesn't even make sense to them that someone (me) they perceive as an already ruled out option would be so UNAWARE of that decision and the obvious nature of our relationship that I would still try and make a move.
Yours Truly,
[Redacted]